和未来搏斗着

现在有点小时间，来写写东西吧。

我是个比较爱幻想的人，每天都在幻想会有那么一天,会有那么一天。但是始终那么一天没有到来。

同样的我也不停的幻想说自己是个人缘很好的人， 但是感觉完全错误。我那亲和力的笑容， 完全感染不了任何人，得来的都是嫌弃。我应该怎样呢？ 就只好接受这样的对待吗？

可以说真的是忙碌的一个星期，从星期六的动物园到圣诞节当天。JB-SG跑进跑出，星期六早上动物园晚上火锅，星期日早上theory lesson晚上dessert，星期一早上做工晚上count down，星期二早上在新加坡晚上在新山。

这样跑上跑下是很累，但是我知道我还活着真是太美好了。也至少不是自己一个人过。

今天MY FM的话题，用一个字来形容今年的一切。我只可以想到”新”这个字。全新的生活，全新的环境，全新的朋友。我希望洗心革面换个比较不一样的嘉靖，比较开朗的嘉靖，比较自然的嘉靖。

不喜欢虚伪的人，同样的我也不会做虚伪的人。我要带着最真诚的感觉去面对我身边的人.事.务。虽然和之前的朋友减少联络了，那就算了我现在继续做个被动的小孩。被邀请就去，没被邀请就算了。要的是关心我的朋友而不是想到我才找我的朋友。

我快要搬到新加坡进来了，会是怎样的生活呢？要记得最原始的目的，就是多加班，到10点坐taxi回家！既然已经决定了就要多加努力的去落实这一切。也不知道cover得回来嘛，毕竟多加300租金。

为了我的未来，你一定要多加努力！无论如何都要完成最原始目标。加油嘉靖F.I.G.H.T.I.N.G 2.4 我来了。

何去何从

就这样不知不觉的半年过去了，我只能说时间太无情了。
这半年来开始工作的我想要的东西都尽量满足自己。花钱一点都不留情，每个月给自己的budget统统用光。还真的是时尚最流行的月光族。我必须要控制自己！！

很快的我要搬家了，会是个怎样的经历呢？？开心？痛苦？这是我期待的，也是我不敢触碰的。担心和期待的有出入，破灭我的幻想。

那个日子越来越靠近，我真的不知道应该怎样面对它。也许往年的回忆都是痛苦的。希望现在这群兄弟们会有所表示。我承认我眼红人家有的我没有。我只不过希望有群朋友记得我的生日，秘密筹备我的生日，给我小小的惊喜。但是这个愿望有机会实现吗？？我不知道。

也许对些人来说真的没什么特别，但对我而言非常重要。在人家眼里我人缘很好，但是我始终那句我真的没几个朋友 。记得我的朋友，关心我的朋友。从来就没有主动问候我，想起我时就是大鸡大便的时候，来一来，大一大，摇摇屁股就走了。

也许我对朋友的定义太过偏激。我依然期待“你“知心友出现！

我可以怎样？我到底是个怎样的人？我真的那么令人厌倦吗？对，我是个乐观的人但那只是表面的我。伪装坚强，伪装乐观，伪装这一切的一切。小丑妆上也带着泪珠，再乐观的人只要独处时那股莫名的孤独，无助，空虚感统统涌出来 。朋友我需要你们的关心，朋友也许你一封5分钱的问候语简讯我会开心一整天。

我要求不高，只要做任何事情第一时间想到我。想到邀请我这位朋友 。

Lifeness

What a boring life, everyday doing the same thing Work and Sleep. Seriously anything able to make my life a little bit life-ful. Since my life only work and sleep, it make my body become bigger and bigger. After work for 3 months I gain more than 5 KG already WTF. Too stress during working or sleep too early?? Should excise more !!!!!!

Regarding to my working life, that’s not too bad. I am just attended company annual bowling competition. I able to get 343 marks out of 3 games and I am achieved 144 marks for my 1 st game cool right. That’s my highest mark in my life currently. Hope to break my own record soon.

Car licence ah car licence when you can come to my side? When I can get licence and drive to yamcha? Seriously no Idea.

Yesterday someone come and complain with me regarding somebody. Seriously what he say sound so true and I got a lot comment regarding that ppl as well. Why have to do so?? Why must treat your friends like that?? A thousand questions come out with few seconds.

Sometime I just pretend I donoe anything when he trying to imply us something. We don’t mind you voice out the problem and discuss . Don’t try to imply something not everyone smart enough to catch it. Never mind I will just keep on pretending I DONOE. I don’t care anyone cheated by you, as long as don’t happen to me.

云顶@赌博记

就这样一个美好的假期就过去了，是开心的但是有点小不舍。开心是出去玩，不舍是我把钱投资到赌场去了。看着辛苦赚回来的钱毫无自觉跑到对面去。见好就收会说但是真的难办到。

眼看已经到手的RM200，不停告诉自己是时候停下来到外面去shopping消遣了。但是心里的魔鬼作怪就继续的搏斗下去。真的得不偿失，结果最后倒输RM200回去！！就这样东西没买到钱也没了。

如果机会再来一次我还会做出怎样的决定呢？？赌？？不赌？？很难说但是给自己的budget set了就永远不会改动，赢了就走，输了就跑。

小赌怡情，大赌倾家荡产。这句话说的真好，有时候赌不一定是最快得到金钱的方法。我还是坚持我自己的看法还是脚踏实地的工作不要痴心妄想如果有一天赢钱可以怎样怎样！！

虽然我对赌博没有太好的好感，但是我不排斥。对每件事都抱有客观的看法，没有对和错，只有做不做。

失去的钱再赚就有，快乐是金钱买不到的。加油吧努力面对人生。

Work > Zouk Night Club > Desaru > Work Over Time > Dinner With Friends

YES another free time again, so just update something that I did in last long holiday (Hari Raya Holiday).

Work > Zouk Night Club > Desaru > Work Over Time > Dinner With Friends

From Friday 5.45am until Sunday 12am, 3days sleep less than 12 hours. Story defiantly start from working, ya after knockoff rush to Marcus’ house for bath and straight away depart toward Zouk night club for Yvonne’s Competition. So after the competition we were moving out to drink something and back into Club again. Seriously the music not really nice but ya a lot angmo inside so still not too bad lah. Donoe why keep on disturb by angmo when I sitting there and trying to rest awhile. The angmo just random wake me up and shout WAKEUP LET GO TO THE DANCE FLOW and see I got no mood she just leaving. I feel I am so popular for angmo.

We club until 3am-4am when we reach Marcus’ house is about 4.30am. Finally I can sleep now. Unfortunately I have to wake up again at 5.30am rush to admiralty mrt station back to Malaysia for DESARU trip. Ya all the way chat with my friend and paiseh sleep when he was driving since he work nightshift even tired then me I think. So when I reach Malaysia home about 7.30am and have to wake up again at 8.30am for breakfast and depart toward DESARU.

DESARU was not too bad just few of us 4+4. Get to know some new friends and ya nice playing with them. Gambling Gambling Gambling and finally BBQ time. Wow RM51 for a simple BBQ I feel is abit exp but they really buy a lot of meats all kind of meats so not too bad lah huh. Gambling really not a very good game for me I am losing about RM50 just in few hours.

When I reach home yes 1am already and have to wake up at 8am to work over time during HARI RAYA!!!!!!!! Depart from Malaysia at 9am reach Company about 11.45am waste a lot travel time. Just OT for 5 hours and leave company toward next gathering with secondary school’s friends for dinner. Seriously I am sooooooo sry to say that I can’t make it for singk section. After dinner finding a café to chit-chat to update each other. Then reach home almost 12am leh.

Fully use my holiday, and super tired when I come back to work although I can sleep a lot during Monday ganti holiday. This all week skip lunch taking lunch time for a nap and now IS FRIDAY. Weekend just 3 hours away from now, I am so excited and look forward my precious sleeping time and yamcha with my friends.

Now I am thinking of buying a car or moving house. So guy who read my blog pls advice me. Get a car and drive to pickup point in Malaysia to work or just stay in Singapore. The renter fee I think really can pay for the car interest.

Blog During Working Period Oops

Yes since I got nothing to do let’s use Microsoft Office to type something to update my photo-less blog.
 
Donoe why all my photo gone after I wake up and all the photos’ memories gone in few second. Lucky to say that all my wording memories still there. Never mind just restart from zero, reorganise a blog is just a simple job i think.

Working life, was so busy to squeeze the time for sleeping. Sleeping was so so so important to me. I have to wake up at 5.45am even early then secondary school period lol. After then all the way sleep from Eunos to Clementi in MRT and from Clementi to Company.

1 month ++ here time fly. I am so happy when I getting my 1^st pay. Although the pay was much much lower than my friends but that is 1 of the motivation to push me to improve myself and rajin for OT.

As usual, I am still thinking of continue my degree. Hopefully 1year later!! Really no idea when I can go back to schooling life.  Ya so just work hard to save money and pray hard the wish come true.

The working life in NOK was not too bad just abit far from my house nia. So 2 choices for me, 1 change house 2 Change Company. For now I got only 1 choice change house.

Donoe is a good thing or bad thing that I got nothing to do in this moment. The person that I work with love me too much never give me much job, but really hope to get more job because I hope I got more OT to earn more.

Blog again in next free moment

A NEW LIFE IN NOK

Have been working here for about 3days the best thing ever so far was got nothing to do just maintain doing nothing mode and keep on act busy and read some stupid materials which people say "USEFUL" for me but I can't get the useful point at the moment.

Happy to say that my colleagues invited me going for self-decay break time on 2nd working day, start learning some bad habit. No much complain currently everything is pretty good nice food in canteen, short queue during lunch time, the food is cheap and the toilet is clean.

The only thing i want to complain was the office aircon. The office is nice with neat decoration but is super duper hot. got aircon like no aircon. Hope I can change to my permanent seat as soon as possible at least is much cooler then currently 1. Guess who sitting beside me?? Pinky will sit beside me I know you all can create alot of story after read this sentences. LOOK FORWARD for your story wor. hehe

I am free but not as free as what you think lah just doing something not relate to my job for example become photocopy boy, coffee boy, office cleaner of course not JUST KIDDING MAN. I am doing some data entry job and just blindly keep in to the template nia was so easy. Hope I can start touch my job as soon as possible and I have to go through orientation with all new worker next week, going for thumb print in MOM hope everything go short and smooth don't too lengthy.

For my company don't have mass production in Singapore branch so I feel a little bit high class don't look like a factory job. 1 big office fill up with all kind of engineers and admin staff. Ya pray hard don't have ppl hate me and talk bad behind me like happen during IAP.

Ya I more funny thing happen, my colleagues keep on asking me interest in football anot cos they do have company soccer team and having some friendly match between department. But is too bad I am reject the offer from them cos I got no talent on this and never join this game before. Actually who like soccer can join my company lol you can mix with them WELL.

LOOKING FORWARD MY LIFE IN NOK.